Joy-filled thinking

So I've made it through 3 days of running. It's a lot farther than I ever thought I could go. Today is a rest day, but I will be at the gym, working out, but not running. Yesterday I had a hard time running. I defeated myself before I even got on the track, and because of that I didn't run as well as I would have liked. I only ran 1 mile. But it is still progress. I started reading (again) the book call The 4:8 principal It's about joyfull thinking, and how to have joy. It goes off of Philipians 4:8 "Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."

It talks a lot about your thoughts and how they can steal you joy. This year I want my thought life to be pure. I want it to be positive. I am working on thinking, so I can do. I can't run 26 miles if I already told myself I couldnt.

Day 1

I can tell you that in the last year the farthest I've ran was probaby like from the front of metro to the back and that was hard for me. I can tell you I HATE running. But today I ran. I could have given up fast, but I didn't. I may have not run all 2 miles, but its not about the finish it's about the journey. Today I started a new journey. "a journey of a million miles begins with one step." Today was step one, tomorrow step two. I am going to be different this year, and I am excited for it :)

2011

So today I was asked, "What is your New Year's resolution?" Well truthfully, I think if I were to have one (which I don't really make them, because I just want change, not so much because of the New Year) I would say mine is to fine me. This may sound silly, but in the course of this last year, I think I actually lost who I am. I lost it to the lies of this world, to stress, to un-heathly habits, to insecurities, to loneliness, to fear, ect... I could go on but I lost myself in so much this year. I don't think I really realized I had done this until this month where I was searching for who I was. I haven't been happy with myself. I hate how I look, I hate how I act, and I hate how I think. Am I not a child of God? Then why am I not acting like it. I have been stressed out, easily angered, emotional, not healthy. This is not who I really am. I am joyful, friendly, smiliey, heathly person. So I am on a journey this year to uncover that. It's been hidden for far too long. I am done with the old, in with the new. So Monday I started a excerise program, and I am changing my eating habits. I am not so much on a diet as I am just trying to make healthier choices. Also, this year I am going to be desperately searching for God. I want to be so much more in love with Him. A friend of mine is doing a marathon for clean water. I am thinking about joining. Am I scared? Yes I don't even know if I can run one mile. But I am going to try, worst thing that could happen is I don't make it. But atleast I will try. This year is going to be an awesome year of growth. I don't ever want to go back to who I was. I am moving on.

Thankful

It's been hard for me to be thankful lately. I've been kinda discouraged lately, with a bunch of things. But I know that I need to be thankful during every situation. So here is what I am thankful for:

I am thankful for Jesus, who gives me life, and hope and purpose.
I am thankful for my parents, who might not show it all the time, but they love me a lot.
I am thankful that I have a house (not my own but I live rent free), a car, a laptop, a cell phone, food, clothes, a bed, water and other random things I "need" and a cute puppy who I love.
I am thankful that a I some good friends, ones who are there for me, and who help lift me up.
I am thankful I have people who I can look up to, that pour into me and help me to grow
I am thankful that I have girl in alive that I am blessed to have known and loved, some for 5 years, some for 5 months, but they are all beautiful and they are all growing into women who love Jesus with everything!
I am thankful that I get to serve in alive and fuel
I am thankful that I have had opportunities to go places other have never been able to go.
I am thankful that I have money so I can go see a friend this weekend.
I am thankful for people who believe in me, when I don't even believe in myself


I am thankful.

Today I was just thinking about the life that I live now, and how I know my life wont look like this forever. I was thinking of the cost I will pay to follow the call God has on my life. I was thinking about how difficult, yet rewarding it will be, and I was thinking about how easy it could be to not do it. It would be the worst but easy decision I would ever make. But I know its not even an option to take the easy route. It is scary and difficult, and lonely. Alot has been on my mind lately, sorry if this makes no sense, ask me in person.

Adoption T-shirt giveaway!

Hey friends,
I stumbled upon this family and they are selling shirts to help with their adoption, really sweet shirts! please give them a look!

http://reevesfamily-fun.blogspot.com/2010/11/fundraiser-fun-and-giveaway.html

REPLY

AHHH I finally got a reply. I could bounce off all the walls I am so excited. You see for the last 2 months I have been e-mailing and contacting different organizations I can go with to Uganda next year. And I have heard nothing until today. I finally got a reply. Today I was feeling so discouraged about it, and I was doubting I was supposed to go, but God is so faithful to His promises! I think this organization is going to fit well too. I am just so excited! wooohooooo :) Can you please keep praying I want this to be God's will! THANKS!

5 Years

5 Years ago with the advice from a friend of mine I came to fuel for the first time. I still remember that day. It was the first day of fuel not being in the baptist building. We got kicked out because of hurricane Katrina, and they were using rooms for people who needed housing. That day we met there, then took the kids to the park to do fuel on location there. I remember being nervous. I met a few kids, but they seemed standoffish and I didn't think I was going to fit it. I didn't know what I was doing. Then I met Melanie. She just talked and talked and I just got to know her. After that, I felt comfortable. I started meeting people, and getting to know them and it was great. 5 Years later, here I am. It's different now. I've grown, changed. Fuel has too. I serve at Alive now too. The girls I met that first time, are now some of the girls in my life group. 5 years. I can tell you I didn't think I would be a leader 5 years later, but here I am. wow. Sometimes I have to just sit back and think of all that God has done. In 5 years... look at what happened. wow